EXPECTATIONS…
Christmas is just about over! There is so much preparation for the big day, and then it is over sooo quickly! I had a good day, but feel somewhat let down. The holidays always leave me feeling this way. Not sure why-maybe I have big expectations. My grown son got me some smelly good stuff for my house, and the cutest Santa Clause tin filled with Russell Stover chocolates!!!!! He knows I am on a diet, so I am not sure why he would have done that??? He knows me I guess, and so I know he did it to be nice. I will be taking it to work tomorrow for the office staff to enjoy. My other son filled a basket full of nice things, but one of the things was a huge rice krispy treat in the shape of a Christmas tree, decorated with chocolate!!!! UGH!!! Not even going to open that sucker!!! I just cant have that stuff in my house. For me having that stuff here would be the same as if you brought alcohol in to an alcoholic’s house. I can NOT be trusted with it!!
Looking forward to getting back on track tomorrow!
I do want to add here, that no one noticed or said anything about my weight loss. No one even asked about it!!!!!!! Really makes me mad/sad. Maybe they think I have fallen off the wagon (since I was eating regular today) (I did have my bottle of water-should have been a clue !!!!), and don’t want to bring up a sore subject?? I don’t know. I can tell that I have lost weight, and I see myself every day….can they not tell? What is the deal? I will say that I am not wearing the most flattering clothes-maybe that is it. My pants are kinda baggy-havent bought anything new yet….no new sizes. But still I would think it would be worthy of my Mom or my sister to mention. This is important, and the support and recognition from my family would be nice. I do know that ultimately I am doing this for me..for my health and my life!!! If I know the truth and the progress, that is all that should matter. I think I just felt like the fat one today, and I didn’t like feeling this way. My Mom and sister are both normal size. I did think to myself this morning…next year they wont recognize me! I am just feeling sorry for myself, and I am sorry if this brings anyone down on such a special day.
Looking forward….I am gonna make January my best month yet!!!! I am going to strive for super results. Wanna kick it up a notch! It’s funny because soon loosing weight will be all the rage-on tv, sale adds, radio, and specials for gym memberships. Everyone will be making their New Years resolutions…..most of those will be to loose weight, which will last for about a month. We are all soo lucky to be here. We have already made our decision to loose weight. We don’t have to make that resolution!!! YAY! We are already on that path. I am not sure what resolution I will make-need some time to think on that one.
Hope you all had a wonderful day! If you ate to much, or indulged in goodies-tomorrow it’s back on the healthy train! Take care friends, and much love to you all!!! Thanks for lisening!
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I’m so happy you had a great holiday.
I bet you a million dollars your family noticed you lost weight. Maybe they don’t know how to approach you with it? I find that someone may not say one thing about my loss to me,but will tell someone else.
I know you are doing an amazing job regardless!
Let’s rock it girl! It was my NYE Resolution in 2006 to lose and I have not gone back since.
NEXT YEAR They will not recognize you and will let you know right then and there.
LOVE YA GIRL!
Thanks Nancy for always being so positive and encouraging! I appreciate it sooo much!!!
LOVE YA BACK!!!!
Glad to hear that you had a great Christmas Renee. I do understand about the diet…my step-dad gave me 2 pounds of homemade opera fudge! Are you kidding me?! Luckily that it is so rich that one piece lasts me for a couple of hours, lol. You know as far as people not saying anything about your weight loss…I had that problem too and then I thought “screw it” if they can’t say anything about my accomplishments or how far I have come then I can. I’m proud of it and it deserves to be recognized. Soooo, I would make some off the wall comments that would get them to notice
“I gotta get a new belt…my pants just won’t stay up any more.” “Here, let me do the dishes, that way I won’t go for seconds or thirds and waste all the hard work I have put into losing x amount of pounds.” Hehe, things like that. They may still not say anything but at least then you can feel better about all of your hard work and they may feel a little like an ass for not bringing it up first. 
Grrr, my comment got eaten! I had said that a lot of people don’t want to bring up weight, especially to women, and I had to lose over 30 pounds before anyone commented on my weight loss.
I got chocolate and cookies from friends who knew I recently lost weight, and I wondered what they were thinking too! I gave the food away so it’s not sitting around tempting me.
Hey Girl
You are doing so awesome! Dont worry about the family not saying anything, that usually happens because they think it may be a touchy subject, some people dont realize how far an ounce of praise goes, but feel good about yourself, you are making such huge leaps toward your goal, you go girl!
My New Years Resolution will be to treat myself as special as I treat everyone else, now that is something we can all do!
Peace to You!
Leah ♥
Yeah, I think a lot of us have problems with family not giving some sign they see how well we are doing. I have came in here and vented over that. That’s why we have this place and all these wonderful people..and we are all here because we need that support. I wonder sometimes if it hurts them to say something nice lol.
Your best revenge is too keep going and meet your goals.
As for christmas gifts…one of the girls was wanting to make homemade fudge…my daughter told her…duh. My dad is diabetic and moms losing weight. Thank you to my daughter lol.
I mean, I understand…everyone knows about me and chocolate & they want to give you something that you will like…but still. Kind of like your bunch lol. You have the right idea for those gifts at least. Good for you!
Love Debbie
I totally understand how you feel not getting at least a nod or a “good job” on your weight loss thus far. We who have stuggled with weight for so long do want some outside approval when we have been working so hard for something that comes so naturally to others. But what I have learned this time around (having struggle with weight 20 of the 28 years I have been on earth) is that I have to be my own cheerleader! It’s my body, my health, and my success any other cheers of approval are icing you know. For so long I have wanted the approval of my mother and family (to be financially, educationally, and phsically successful) just so I could finally be on the inside of the family and not the black sheep…But you know what? This means more to me than anyone…my success is for me you know? And of course…the icing is BS! When I need a little boost of encouragment or a cheerleader, I’m so blessed that you are all here to support me and I can do the same for you! So Renee…I wrote this essay LOL to tell you….I know it hurts not to get the approval that you seek, but the real rewards come from within and we on BS are ALL HERE TO CHEER YOU ON GIRL!!!!
Much love to you! Hope this helped! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo!
I want to thank all of you for your words of wisdom and encouragement! It means so much to have your support.
By the way, I did take the chocolates to my co-workers today!! LOL!
Thanks again!!
I think a lot of us feel the way you do. We are doing this for US but boy do we want our work to be recognized. It helps to motivate us further I think. Maybe when you have clothing on that is more fitted, they will be knocked over by the difference…
good luck on getting rid of the goodies
You are doing great, and you know, maybe they are a wee bit jealous? You keep up the hard work, they will notice. Hugs!
Aww Renee! U R doing great! And I agree abt the holidays, there is such a big emphasis put on this time of year, the frenzy of shopping and the commercials about the magic of the season etc. Then it comes and then it is over and it is back to real life. I totally relate to what you are saying. I too often feel an emptiness after it is all over. Kind of sad:(
Let’s fill ourselves with MOTIVATION now to lose some more weight!!! I have not been doing so well with my food intake so I am READY to get back on track!!!
Thank you so much you guys!!!!!!!!
ah….that’s sad that they didn’t say anything….I know how it feels! I went on vacation w/my anorexic in-laws! I had soooo much confidence when I left bc I had put so much effort into my wardrobe for the trip ( i know that sounds stupid but…..I dress kind of funky-they- very preppie-nothing wrong w/that…just not my deal)…I have gained a LOT of weight since I saw them last from being sick all year, however, I’d worked out so religiously for 10 or 12 weeks before even though it was mostly weights bc I was still feeling the effects of my surgery and I just couldn’t do both…caused too much pain!!! Anyway, even though I went into the trip w/great self-confidence, after being around them (for just a few days!) I felt completely defeated! It took me a few days at home to recover! I worked out really hard the first 2 days there but then…got a nasty cold (we were in QUEBEC!!! arrghhh…for thin-blooded texans…..) so….if I’d been able to keep working out on that trip, I think it would have kept my spirits up. My family told me awful things when I was sick (4 brothers!)…like I was sick because I’m overweight! May be but I even got into an altercation w/one brother who told me I was fat and that I was just in denial!!!! Thanks bro! Haven’t spoken to him since. Talk about kicking someone when they’re down. Thing is, he’s overweight and he eats terrible food, stressed out, high bp; I’m like, Hey, at least I’m DOING something about it in….trying to keep up my workouts, etc….so….gosh, family can be awful!!!!!!!!! See? Even brothers!!!! OH well…..as soon as I start my workouts and start eating better, I don’t care what they say…I know that I’m trying to do something about it….and that’s all that matters. You should be SO proud of yourself….YOu should shout it out to your family about your weight loss!!!!!!! It’s sooooo fricking hard and people who’ve never struggled have NO idea how much it sucks. It takes so much courage, perseverence, determination…..Well, I’m proud of you sister! You’ve inspired me!!!!! Keep up the good work!